And how can I really tell my son to eat his vegetables first when my ideal dinner consists of a deli sandwich and a big slice of cake? And restaurant manners?!?! Victor stills throws wadded up bits of paper at his friends when we’re at Denny’s, and I still blow the cover off my straw off with my breath. And I like listening to Green Day, Nirvana, No Doubt, The Foo Fighters and Lagwagon, not exactly the right music when you’re trying to teach your child to behave.
And I hate not being able to go to Warped Tour and miss The Offspring just because I’m pregnant, but I’m not going to take my baby to an all day concert. And I don’t want to wear mom clothes, or have a funny mom haircut, but I don’t want to be one of those crazy clubbing moms either.
I’m just on a rant, and last night I was all wound up, but Victor and I were lying in bed with all the lights off just staring at the ceiling listening to Green Day like we used, and he started singing along and it really relaxed me. I mean what matters is that Victor and I love each other and strive to be the best we can for the baby and each other (and we hurry up and finish school!!). Life is full of compromises and I know that’s what this is, I’ve never been on the ‘edge’ and partied like a fend, I’ve always been responsible and motherly, so I’ll just have to go with that, I’m sure I’m much more capable than I realize. I mean I’ve been babysitting frequently since I was ten, I’ve been a lifeguard and swim instructor for four years, and I’m an education major, and everybody has always described me as ‘maternal.’ I just need to get a grip and chill. Phew, lol.
And yay!!!! By next week I should (let’s pray) have my license, and I’ll be registered for a couple classes online (I still don’t believe I can take a few of my Science and Math requirements online!). Soon I’ll be done and be into my major…I’m counting down the classes little by little, only three or so left!
when I talk about it
it carries on
reasons only knew
when I talk about it
Aries or treasons
all renew
big me to talk about it
I could stand to prove
if we can get around it
I know that it's true
when I talked about it
carried on
reasons only knew
but it's you I fell into
(repeat)
well I talked about it
put it on
never was it true
but it's you I fell into
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and NO im not one of those ppl who say "oh i'll babysitt" and never come through, cuz i have many of those & where have i qone? everytime i have somewhere special to be i end up cancellinq cuz no one could stay wit him, or they're "scared". lets see... so many thinqs u said that i totelly understand, just RELAX & worry about you & ur baby right now. school is important but take it easy & dont even think about school for the first 2 months the baby is here cuz you'll need all the sleep & spare time to relax as you can get! oooooh trust me!! LOL! i am NOW tryinq to finish skOol so lets see how that goes.
Ok, i think i've written WAAY too much for an lj comment. LOL
<3 you!!!
If you ever need me to babysit just let me know like a week in advance and if I can I'll totally do it, the only thing that might stop me is I usually babysit my cousins on Friday and Saturday. I know it's hard to plan in advance sometimes, but if you let me know, for sure! And just think, I'm a certified lifeguard so your baby will be in good hands lol ;oP
Thanks for all the great advice though, it's always super helpful hearing from you! :o)
and thank u for the help .. i'll remember next time :O) actually i DID need one for this week cuz i had to take a test @ skOol but im starting work tmorw [DONT ASK PLEASE!] and i wont be doinq any skOol stuff.
muah! qOodniqht
Me too! On both counts. I never drive. It just doesn't come naturally...and Paco loves to so why not let him...but Viv, we've gotta learn. I understand though...plus Miami drivers are crazy. And up in Tally it's hilly...so the car will all of the sudden start speeding without my pressing the gas. Scawy. Me no like.
Do you guys like Picadillo? It's my favorite dish and you can make it in large quantities and then make another meal with the left-overs (empanadas). I can send you my recipe if you'd like.
And yeah with the driving I've been taking lessons and for two and a half hours I drove from my house in West Miami hopped in the Palmetto then took the turnpike to North Miami Beach and then I-95 allll the way home. LoL I was so proud of myself!!! But it's the other drivers that creep me out!!!!! I say go on the highway with Paco, once you've been on the highway, it seems a bunch easier!